The Future

My first post in quite awhile. ~ Summer has finally caught up to me. ~ My fabulous internship being over, I now have three weeks of supposed "relaxation," "fun in the sun" and "me-time." ~ Which is what I'm trying to do. ~

But to be honest, thoughts of the future have begun to invade my mind more and more often recently. ~ University looms like a dark wall ahead, foreboding. Yet beyond that wall lies everything that I've been working towards. ~ I feel like this is it - this is the moment of choice, the moment where I plan out my career and my life. ~ And yet uncertainty overwhelms me every time I realize that I will soon be aflight, a bird who can now fly and must choose where its wings will take it. ~

And I know that I still have a year to go. ~ A year of work, friendship, and exams. ~ But I'm finding it difficult to concentrate on the present and near-future when I'm faced with the dark pit that I feel like I'm headed towards. ~ Maybe this is what soldiers feel like when they get ready for battle and lie waiting for the enemy to approach - anticipation, fear, dread, and a bit of excitement, all mashed into one butterfly sensation in the stomach. ~

And while some who read this post might lament me for bringing up school right in the middle of summer, I know that I'm not the only one to start thinking that far ahead. ~ And that thought comforts me, knowing that I'm not alone, and definitely not the first to have such qualms. ~ If everyone else survived it, then so will I. ~

Brave on. ~ Brave on. ~